Re-Discovering Childhood Ambitions

Monday, June 13, 2016

Childhood is supposed to be a time to grow, develop and progress.  Your childhood years are your formative years, so those years are a time of discovery and trying to come into your own.

However if you had the childhood I had, you probably experienced a lot of people tearing you down and making you feel as though your ambitions and achievements were pointless and worth nothing.  Kids are natural dreamers - I was a huge dreamer and I have always had a vivid imagination - yet to have others invalidate a child's ambitions is very cruel.  The worst was seeing other kids being praised for their goals, ambitions and achievements, yet I was vilified for mine.

Since I came to university (and put myself through therapy) I have re-discovered my inner childhood self, which was completely killed off when I was an infant.  I have re-discovered my childhood interests, passions and ambitions.  I always loved reading and I always loved writing.  I used to read novels on a regular basis and I write stories and literary pieces.  Deep down inside I knew that I had a great skill and I knew I wanted to make something of it, but I didn't know how, because even though writing is my passion I didn't know how to make money from it.  Don't forget, the blogging world didn't exist when I was a kid!  I thought about being a journalist or an author, but eventually I put those ambitions aside because I didn't think I could succeed in getting into those roles.  Now I wouldn't rule those goals out at all.  In fact I want to achieve those goals.  I've just finished university and I want to get a role in marketing, social media or public relations, but I really want to carve out a highly successful career as a writer.  I want to be a content writer, copywriter, author, ghost-writing, magazine journalist and blogger (yes, I do want to work in all of these roles!) Ultimately, I want to have a job that involves writing, and I'm considering taking additional courses (magazine journalism and creative writing courses) in order to get me closer to my goals.

I was also good at essay-based subjects at school and I loved studying social sciences and humanities, but I wasn't sure if I'd ever be able to achieve my dream of studying an essay-based subject at university.  Without getting into detail a lot of people tried to stop me from achieving this, often telling me that I was 'wrong' for wanting to study those subjects and that I would never get anywhere in life if I studied those subjects.  Well, that's a load of bullshit and it's quite ironic, because I went to the University of Leeds to study a foundation year in Social Science and a degree programme in Politics and Sociology, and studying a social science (essay-based) degree was one of the best decisions I ever made.  I've always been very academic, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that and I didn't want to study any other type of subject (i.e. sciences, performing arts, art and design, sport, etc) so studying Politics and Sociology - even though I won't pursue those subjects - was the right decision for me, and there's no way I'd spend 4 years paying £9,000 a year studying something I absolutely hated.  I made the mistake of studying subjects at school that I didn't enjoy (because I was bullied into doing so) and I ended up performing poorly, so there's no way I'd want to let anyone jeopardise my education again.  Luckily the University of Leeds got me on the right track academically - and I was so worried I wouldn't be able to get to this point because I'd been pressured into going down the wrong route - so I will always be grateful for the university because I managed to achieve my childhood dream for furthering myself academically.

While I'm still on the topic of university, it's important for me to mention on thing: from the age of 14 I knew I wanted to go to university.  Yet I had people along the way who told me that I would never ever make it, and I had people who put me down my university goal and tried to derail the process, then to make matters worse I didn't due well in my A Levels (no matter how hard I worked) due to personal issues I was having at the time.  Yet here I am: several years later I've just finished my degree and I am due to graduate next month!  So once again, I'm grateful to the University of Leeds for allowing me this fantastic opportunity.

Another goal I have yet to achieve is to become a successful entrepreneur.  I hate being told what to do and I hate authority, so I always wanted to be my own boss.  I have a couple of business ideas in my head, but ideally I'd love to become a well-paid freelance (lifestyle) writer.  At the moment I am finding this very difficult to achieve.  I used to work as a paid freelance writer but since then I've struggled to get paid freelance work.  I do write articles for home but I don't get paid, but hopefully this will change one day.  I love 'working' from home: I can't stand office politics, I'm an introvert and I like the idea of working from the comfort of my own desk/sofa/bed.  Alternatively, I'd love to start my own magazine/publication, but time will tell.

From a young age I loved beauty.  When I go into a beauty hall I feel like a kid in the candy store.  Up until my adolescence I went through various phases of experimenting with makeup until I started secondary school.  Due to my immense love for make-up, I considered training up as a make-up artist, but I realised that I really didn't want to apply make-up on others, as weird as that sounds.  I also considered going to the London College of Fashion to study Cosmetic Science (which sounds so cool) but I'm not good at science at all.  I'm more interested in branding so I would love to go into beauty PR/marketing communications, and I love writing about beauty so I'd love to be a beauty writer/journalist, but I guess I do that already!  Also, I've had the wonderful opportunity of working as a #NYXInsider for NYX Cosmetics, so I feel blessed to have had a taste of what it's like to work in beauty marketing.

Another crazy ambition of mine was to become a forensic scientist (but I'm no good at science so that was a no-no) or a criminologist, or a lawyer, because I love reading about crime and I love the idea of fighting for injustice.  While I haven't done studied criminology or trained as a lawyer, I did study Introduction to Crime and Criminal Justice in my foundation year, and I studied Media Law in my final year.

Overall, I once my believed my childhood dreams were unrealistic and impossible to achieve, but now I realise that I am more than capable of reaching my full potential and achieving my goals.  As cliché as it sounds, never let anyone stop you from discovering and achieving your childhood ambitions, and always bear in mind that there are many ways to achieve your dreams, as long as you work hard and pursue your passions.  Nothing worth having comes easy and if one door closes, another one opens.

What were your childhood ambitions?  Have you been able to achieve them?

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  1. This is such a refreshing post. There is something so lovely about a 'childish' way of thinking. I think as people get older they typically become more cynical, settle for less and lose ambitions. So nice that the opposite has happened for you!

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