New Year, New Me?

It's a new year and I know that a lot will happen for myself this year, so there will be some changes in my life and I look forward to starting a new chapter, and I have a list of things I would like to accomplish this year.

Will I be the same person I was in 2015?  Well, I don't know.  I can't say that this year is 'the new me' because we all grow and we all change from time to time.  Life is a learning curve.  It's a process.

Things did change in 2015, and I noticed a change in myself.  I was so fed up of dealing with BS from people that I decided to cut loads of people off and keep my distance from so many people.  I have always struggled to be assertive but things came to a head and I knew I would have to stand my ground eventually because I was being treated poorly and walked all over by people who should have known better.  I thought to myself, "I can't do this any more."

I've tried out many techniques to help me become more assertive, but I hope that 2016 will be the year where I can finally start being a lot more assertive and stick to it!  I haven't got an issue being assertive in certain situations (e.g. placing an order in a restaurant, speaking to the postman, speaking to the bus driver, etc) but I have often found asserting myself in situations where I'm with colleagues, flatmates, housemates, 'friends', acquaintances, etc extremely difficult.  I'm hoping that will change.  I'm getting there!  The feelings of fear are slowly diminishing.  I don't worry about a backlash any more, and if someone close to me is going to badly react to assertiveness, then they aren't a good person to be around anyway. this a new me?  Possibly, but I'm still the same person.  Since mid-2015 my self-esteem has improved drastically and I'm still kind, considerate, compassionate, respectful, selfless, hardworking, thoughtful, imaginative, ambitious, determined, driven and secure within myself.  Best of all, I no longer have a place in my life for toxic individuals who pretend to have my best interests at heart but set out to bring me down at any given opportunity.  I have no need for that sort of behaviour and no time for it, and I could do without bad vibes, bad energy and negativity from others.'s to the same old me.



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