Monday, December 28, 2015

2015 has been an extremely challenging year for me.

I've been through a lot in my life, and even though I am only 23 years old, I feel as though I have been through enough to last me a lifetime.

2015 was quite a tough year for me because things kind of came to a head.  Something in me snapped and I thought "I'm not doing this anymore.  This isn't fair.  I don't deserve this at all."  I was constantly being treated like trash, and I'd had enough.  I felt so bitter and resentful and I was suffering so much.  I decided to cut people off and keep my distance, and even though this was a long process, I'm so glad I did it because it had to be done for the sake of my sanity.  It's a shame that so-called 'friends, flatmates/housemates and family' have the potential to be toxic.  It's awful because toxic people suck the life out of you, and when those toxic people happen to be a 'friend,' flatmate, housemate or a relation, it's even worse.

I only have a few people in my life that I consider to be of great value to me and those people are the only ones I choose to stay in contact with.  It also helps that I'm part of a couple of societies where I feel happy, comfortable and surrounding by other like-minded people.  As for other people, I couldn't care less.  I'm not afraid to cut people off and blank them in the street if they have treated me right.  It's to be expected really.  Treat others as you would like to be treated! It's not difficult!  For myself, respect is a two-way street, and if a person doesn't stick to their end of the bargain then I am done.  I don't have any respect for those who clearly have absolutely no respect for me.

As a result, I have adopted a new motto:

"Count your blessings and cut your losses."

Life doesn't always work out the way you want it to.  People come and go from your life and not everyone has a place in your life.  If it's meant to be then it's meant to be, and if someone is meant to be a part of your life then they will be.  I don't feel as though there is any point in beating myself up over the fact that I have lost people in my life because in my honest opinion, some people are just not worth it.  I count my blessings - the great people in my life who care about me, love me and truly support me no matter what - and cut my losses - the people who set out to bring me down, manipulate me and hurt me in any way, shape or form.

I feel happier and I don't feel as though I missing out when I cut toxic people out of my life.  In fact I feel empowered and I feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  I don't feel a need to dwell on the bad anymore.  I feel free, and I feel as though I'm progressing.  I'm fine this way.  I'm grateful and appreciative of my blessings - friends, the Lippy No Gloss society, university, my blog, opportunities I've gained this year, goodies, treats, the lovely people I've met, chocolate, reality TV, music, etc etc.  I'm happy with the blessings I have, and those blessing are enough for me.


Have a Happy New Year.

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